i find it rather funny how
the three people who
skipped out on telling me or
showing in public
their emotions for me
where or are all
insecure on themselves
and were ruled by
group pressure.
one of these three
traumatized me
so completely
that i am obsessed with him
i can not let him go
i sometimes wish i could
but still
seeing him
is one of the things
that keeps me alive
so giving him up
is like giving up life.

i am traumatized for life
because of him.

(i still wear you shirt
for the same old
stupid reason)