ok
it's all an illusion
I tell myself this
Knowing full well I'm lying
I accept it as truth
and I shut my eyes real tight
so it seems there are stars floating around me
... like I'm moving among the stars
Though it's all an illusion
I can make myself believe
the illusion seem so much like home
the illusion feel so very real
and I tell myself that
that there's a place for me there
that this is somewhere I belong
that I have all I that I ever needed
right here
and that I'm ok
stuck here
in my mental prison... this tiny little box
with my fictive wants and needs
I think I'm losing that trust
I think I'm forcing myself away
and yet, it's all ok
cause it has to be
but I think... I think that maybe... maybe it's not...
... it's not really ok
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