TEARS
when i start to think they'll come
i think of everything and that makes me sad
i miss my baby
i lost my love
my friends disapired
but why?
what was my reason?
why cant i just be neutral?
my tears runb down my cheaks
they makes my shirt wet
they continue to run
i wish i could make the done undone
but i cant
i dream at night i could be diffrendt
but when i wake up i am still me
i cant change
i try but i still turn out to be the same me
the me without friends
the me without family
how did i become like this?
why do i have to hurt myself?
why do i have to hurt those around me?
my tears is the only sign
a swign that i regreat
i wish so badly
but it dosnt change anything
could i get another chance?
why should i?
i am not worth it!
i am worthles
why didnt i just die as a baby?
then i would not have become such a disapointment
but i didnt die
and i did become a disapointment
could there be a chance for me?
a chance to change?
it would stop my tears
no one see my tears
they only come when im alone
so no one sees that i regreat my actions
no one knows i wanner change
when they see me i smile
even though i just wanner cry
but i cant
it would hurt them if i did
but my tears hides behind the happy mask
why cant HE see it?
why dosnt he belive them?
i curse the happy mask i wear
but i cant make myself remove it
they hides the truth
they hides my sorrow
and they most of all
hides my tears