How many lengths must I grow and cut until the hair strands which your fingers ran through are no longer left

How many layers of skin will I have to shed until the skin which has the marks of your hands come off

How much perfume must I spray until the smell of your skin leaves my senses

How many new memories must I create in our place for me to no longer see your face in every space

How many sleepless nights must toss and turn until I can fall asleep without your arms around me

How many times will I have to close my eyes and think of darkness until you leave my thoughts for good

How many boys will I have to kiss for your taste to leave my lips

How many hands have to touch my body until I stop missing yours

Tell me when the pain stops
when the guilt disappears,
when the disgust ends

How many smiles will I have fake,
How many tears will I have to shed
How long will my heart stay broken

How much longer will I walk these streets
until I stop turning every corner
looking for you,
searching for you,
hoping you’ve been waiting for me all along.