I'm pulling back
in lesser space,
in narrower circles,
closer,
tighter

with no wish to
with no wish to
with no wish to

The N growing bigger
The O too
The W giant
The I a tall totem pole
The S the snake that swallows me
The H heaven's ladder for believers

My mind
a cracking sphere
leaking venomous blue light

I won't even put up
a fight