This is not it
This is not it
it’s not a life
I want to live
This is not it
it cannot be
I refuse
This is not it
I did not sign up
for this
Am I supposed
to sit alone
in my expensive
comfortable cage
just waiting for days
to end
Someone is sitting
right behind this wall
but as far as I know
we are worlds apart
isolation
fatigue
fatigue
swallowing me whole
This cannot be it
I won’t have it
I won’t go to
a job I feel
indifferent towards
everyday
put in all of
my effort
to land hopelessly
tired on the couch
watching Netflix
hour after hour
alone
Working every day
every week
every year
getting paid
paying with my life
my time
and energy
making someone else
rich while
just maintaining this
horrid lifestyle
for myself
This is not it
I will not have it
I was not brought
to this earth
to do this
whatever this shit is
This is not it
it’s not
it can’t be
To be alive
is a miracle
I am
a miracle
but my life
is waiting
for it to end
This is not it
I’m doing it wrong
I was forced to
do it like this
I will do it
no more
This is not it
I know it’s not
I’m sure of it
I’m changing
change
changes
finding the miracle
I know that
I am