you say i’ve changed but maybe you just never knew me
maybe i never knew me either
because i was to busy hiding behind things that i think
and convincing myself that silence feels like freedom
it dose not
it feels like being under water
and trying not to scream
i taught that it was how my life was suppose to be
i’m constantly drowned trying to be like her and wishing i was something better than me
i know that competition and fear killed me
they say i’ve changed
but they did not know me