so i reverted even more to how i was before when i talked to julia again.

i used to be intolerable. dont know how anyone could bother with me.

well, almost no one did. so its nice that tracey is still here.

anyway, i insulted someone on facebook some hour ago. got the same insult back.

(this was good though. no idea why i plow through so much bullshit every day)

i never understood this reprocicality before.

i thought i was cool by using mean words.

people would either not respond at all afterwards

or be mean back.

this goes back all the way to 2006. or even earlier. to the 90s. sigh...

anyway, can watch videos now. and its a whole new world.

another thing on facebook, is i would put effort into responding to absolutely stupid memes and opinions before, which happened again. so i would only get stupidity back. real smart.

and i still want to change the world, for the better.

but anything changes the world.

and vids are nice. its 3 senses. vision sound and linguistics. 3D.

and people literally put months into each video. incredible.

and bella was wonderful, because she didnt insult me constantly when i talked cosmic. yes some chicks at fountain house digged it for awhile but quickly tired of me.

and most guys would

1) insult me after a few words
2) at the same time, it was sexual
3) in disgusting terms
4) while laughing
5) in slang
6) still in a politically correct way
7) it could also be aggressive / yelling / murder threats

dont miss that at all.

but trying to say truther things on facebook usually has the effects of which i mentioned above, with the addition of

8) you are insane / see a shrink / go to a mental ward

and my dad was basically the same, but the staff here are worse than him.

and since im happier / less anxiety now, i sometimes can impress chicks here like in the olden days. but after a few mins of intense joy, they quickly scurry away with the excuse "i have to use the bathroom" (wonder why)