so i figured it out, my mind is turning more clear. its not my mom ruining my life. its my sister sara. i realized it after taking saffron and then more and more over time.

she wanted a crippled twin that was always medicated sick tired unlucky ugly in pain and a virgin all his life, so she would be pillfree healthy awake lucky pretty be happy and have a 1000 fuckbuddys all the time.

well, she sorta suceeded with that. and as im writing now, i get her telepathy "i will delete you" ("jag tar bort dig"). she can change time. heartgold worldstone can make time. and bella can see time.

well cant write more as my arms are tired and aching. this telepathy happened the day before i jumped the second time a year ago. on her birthday. of all things.