Yes, this is a head-case in many means. I believe, if I keep writing, I CAN BEAT negative symptoms of psychosis which is CONSIDERED CHRONIC. I don’t know about my anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure) if that is, exactly, part of the negative symptoms of psychosis – I should know I am an expert at all this, but now it eludes me. And Hjärter dam, and I am aware I lack libido and I am aware I lack feelings. …Likely I will just have to be thrown out in the world, maybe I make it, maybe I don’t. SO I BEAT MANIA. Already wrote about before. I finished the ‘’final project’’ that entails ultra-mania. I believe it was unsuccessful, but that is not the point. I finished it. And if I can beat negative symptoms of psychosis WHICH IS CHRONIC… maybe I can enjoy sex – got the fucked up in the ass anhedonia. I’m tired of writing. Maybe I will publish this. Rather, tired, from writing. Guess it was heavy duty material.