About love and break up
New poem
Here we go again
Love isn't easy or a dance on roses
Love is hard and a lot of work
I learned the hard way
So my intuition told me that this would not hold
And as always I was right
Today what had merley begun as a new love story has ended abruptly
You wanted a relationship but without it's challenges
You wanted me to be your Princess without treating me as one
Your lack of empathy and lack of life experience and your difficulties and personality clashed with my life experience, overflow of empathy and my difficulties and my personalitys
In many ways we were similar and in other ways the total opposites
I wanted to for once build a foundation before heading into something more serious
I wanted to take my time with things and test you
And you gave up
You said you've tried over and over but I can't seem to see your efforts
You played with my emotions and one day everything was fine and we laughed and cuddled and felt a connection
just for you to totally shut off and be cold and ignore me the next
You weren't very romantic
You barley texted me
Rarley said good night
Played video games while we talked on the phone
There was always something wrong
I still wanted to be with you more and for you to give me more attention
But you today said those 4 words that means break up
We need to talk
And you said you can't give me the attention I want
That you are not right in the head
That there is stuff in your life you don't want to drag me into
That you need a break
That you want to end this relationship
That you don't really want to but
And now you want to stay as friends
I never said that I love you
I thought them but never said it out loud
I always made sure I was clean and pretty for you
Gave you little gifts
For a little while I was happy
But now you're gone
I'm so grateful for my cats and family and friends
Without them I would be shattered
But I didn't have the time to fully trust that you would be by my side in good and bad
I never gave you my heart completely
I'm hurt but it was no surprise
I saw the signs
I knew this was coming
But it came a bit sooner than expected
I'll cherish the good memories
And I stand alone yet again
We danced in the darkness
In the shadows for a little while
But your darkness and my darkness did not match a 100 percent
No one is flawless
And it feels very strange to suddlenly not have you
I didn't want this
I wanted to try more
To get to know each other better
But no
I want you but I know I deserve better
I had fun with you until we became like strangers to each other
When I stopped making an effort
It all died
I was just acting like you
I will miss you
I gave you an honest chance
In the end I was just an inconvenience to you
Like Shit under your shoe
But I'll let you go
Won't run after you
I don't run after boys, buses and trains
My dad thaught me not to chase after these things
There is always a next
And that's how life is
We cross paths with people and share experiences and make new memories
Just to suddenly stand on our own again
I'm okay because I have learned to love myself
I'm never completely on my own
I have my family and my cats and some friends
But yeah it's always a bit sad to lose someone you like
Until next time love strucks
I'll be waiting