The cats are fed, their toilets are clean
My belly is full, I'm clean
My clothes and everything is washed
There are no dishes
The kitchen appliances are clean
The refrigerator is clean and full
The fridge is full
I cooked a fantastic meal
The sims 1 and 2 will be re-released
There will be new sims games

And yet
I'm not satisfied
I'm not happy
I'm dissapointed and sad
I'm tired
And my back hurts
I feel lonely no matter that I talk to people
I don't know what's wrong
I feel like I'm waiting for validation from outside myself
Because it doesn't matter if I know I've done a good job
Even if I utter those words and praise myself
And even when other people say it
I don't feel it
I don't feel that it's ever good enough
Like I want it all to be perfect

I want for life for once be a little bit easy and smooth
But it's like overwhelming
And full of obstacles and problems to solve and overcome
Like all the time
And it's exhausting
And it's never ending
And it's like the same things over and over again
And on top of that new things
And changes

I'm frustrated like all the time
With everything
And everyone
I don't have any patience

I don't feel very present in the now
I think about my past
A lot

And I think about my future
a lot aswell

I'm not okay

I kind of just need a hug...