Time ticks by,
and you don't even say hi.

You call yourself my friend,
but you've never invited me fully into your life.
I've never been a priority of yours.

We haven't hung out much in these last 17 years we've known each other.
We have been there for each other,
but I'm not sure if that's just some memories of the past?
Because in the present I feel it's really one-sided.
If I don't write anything, you don't show any interest in me or my life.
I feel lonely even though you are my friend.

Shouldn't it be that if you truly care about someone and they mean a lot to you,
you would do anything to keep them a part of your life?

That it wouldn't matter if there is a distance or different lifestyles or different priorities, you'd overcome those things?

There is always a way to keep in touch and make time for your friendships.

It's a choice what we focus on, the solutions or the differences and the problems.

You say that I still mean a lot to you but when and how have you showed it these past years?

You say you don't dwell on the past, it feels like I only have those few moments with you and those are from the past.

I don't want to lose you but I can't deny that I'm dissapointed that you have nothing more to give.

You're not even reassuring me that if I need to talk I can write you and you'll answer when you've got time.

And I don't take that for granted.

But you've basically got zero time at all times.

It feels shitty that I have to be OK with all this.

Or not. And walk away. And end up without a single friend in the end..

But I rather stand alone than being surrounded by fake friends and energythiefs.

So I guess this is goodbye.

Goodbye.

Thanks for the memories.