where to start

has something new happened

for the first time in my life, I truly, believe in mantra

…at this stage in my life

not that I didn’t believe in it before

i never did not believe in it before

autumn 2020 was a great time

i use to go around saying

''i don’t believe in the beatles''

''i don’t believe in mantra''

''i don’t believe in zimmerman''

-quoting john lennon

zimmerman is bob dylan for those that don’t know

so mantra is something associated with the Buddhism and Hinduism

and man this makes for a big topic

let me just re-draw my past a bit

i got caught up with Fee in the Phish song

Fee is the ''buddhist prodigy'' which doesn’t make him Buddhist

   and he is a character in the song

   i was going to change my last name to Fee, now the plan is Anastasio, the last name of the person that wrote the song Fee

so yeah I will just continue about myself

I have heard i lived an interesting life, so much is self-biographical

today, as mentioned toward the top, is the first day, I truly believe in mantra

(not that I did not before)

patience

that has been a main one

and many others too

for a week to ten days the patience mantra has been going on

the mantra can be all kinds of stuff

…i think you need to have two nervous breakdowns and/or have a ''psychiatric psychosis''

for mantra working for you or be (non-religious) enlightened, psychiatric psychosis is all-in-one-category

I have pronounced myself non-religious enlightened

…for the life of me i can’t think of any other mantras I have done lately besides patience

that is probably why… i feel, to me, I am keeping a good thread here (like i usually do)

It is like a dialogue with the audience, this, and often when i wrote

As well as sometimes self-therapeutic etc.

well yeah I did mantra the title

And I feel pretty good peace of mind now

I noticed as I was writing the word ''feel'' came up two times

Usually only comes up with josefine, well it didn’t

The word feel didn’t come up with josefine

And if things work out with josefine it could be ecstasy

that is the strongest word i know for a feeling, maybe bliss

Well, see if i can get Away from josefine – writing about her, here in this piece, that is

The primary mantra today

patience

patience

patience

patience

well Pete Townshend of The Who also sings an interesting line – ''i believe in love, but how can people who never seen life, be enlightened''

woooooh I set myself up with that one – A lot there , and first time the word ''love'' came up in the piece

so life experience is good

life experience is good for writing

and my nervousbreakdown/psychiatricpsychosis theory holds

pete townshend lyrics let’s move on

how about I just (wildly) start doing mantras

patience

patience

patience

patience

time

time

time

time

i can’t get no

i can’t get no

i can’t get … nah if someone skips down to this to read, I can’t go where my brain was going

the words

the words in my brain

or mind

a beautiful mind

a beautiful mind

i heard it when i was 20 or 21, possibly 22

i can’t remember, the exact age

so tomorrow is a trip

literal

And this piece is running long

And I haven’t eaten lunch for the second day in a row

And my thought-power works better without food

But now is to tie this up in a positive mood

Tomorrow I make a trip

Inside the store I won’t slip

Just mail the letter

That might get me feeling better

Though I feel pretty good right now

And that mantra should work wow