A long time ago, I reached my innermost recesses through self-torturing exercises in inner solitude and with external sampling of selected parts of society's participants. The purpose of these exciting and often long-term initiatives was to be able to stretch out the inner "essence" and the whole thing was intended to reach the lowest, or perhaps highest, in sadness and bitterness and thereby also reach the very top in being able to experience real gladness and a higher clean level of consciousness and everything else which is falsely claimed to give Life itself its value; Full self-realization and harmony. It was largely meaningless and it is a very expensively bought insight. None of that changes what you are born with fundamentally. The core and character of the essence of life remains the same.

The well-deserved was claimed not so long ago to come about, under the supervisory authorities of society, from the pretentious or the performing, or rather from the most long-term repeated exercises in reaching one, or more, skills. To have paid with one's time and energy to obtain the right and credibility to success through the grace of those already established. Many also look for shortcuts to a fullness in life through various forms of hunger; hunger in the will itself, hunger for knowledge itself; mainly to take various kinds of detours with the means of payment laid in suffering with the goal of becoming resilient; becoming so hardened and fine. Above all, to become truly free in some way.

THE OPPOSITE OF THE ABOVE

The undeserving, on the other hand, have hung their lives on inner images of short-term physical rewards; to curb their dirty insides until they burst and still receive forgiveness for the sins that have been manipulated into these victims. To be allowed to soil the masses of innocents with their dirty and ugly minds and bodies, to be allowed to exploit and degrade until they tire of this large-scale exercise of power with an escape and cure from their overt inferiority. The intended victims of their filthy desires are seen as merely subhumans to be freely exploited and the suffering of the victims is extra inflammatory for these minds. To project their inadequacy by longing to destroy and reduce the sufficiency of others in the afterlife is their grand reward... Some do not wait for this but receive from their imaginary Abrahamic jokes of "religions" rewards from their spiritual leadership in advance. At the expense of the rest of the world.

The selective goodness of the majority does not excuse being blind to cause and effect: That certain goodness actually contains the deepest evil without the victims being able or willing to realize this. They then become accomplices as the guilt grows in them.

The lies, the lies of life, are considered to have equivalence as they produce the same results in the self-deception of the disturbed. The cowards become dangerous psychopaths with their immature "insights", but have nothing of value to convey. They take in all the stupidity of the foes and throw it at others before it disappears from their memories.

They have undeniably not earned peace and love in return for dragging down and killing the innocent, killing all their superiors, living in lies until they are fully exploited and thrown away.

CONCLUSION

All these disturbances are "normalized", and possibly identifiable in yourself. We must be allowed to make our own life choices; something which can undeniably be painful and difficult, but there is no other way if we want to become full-fledged and adult beings.