I have been absolutely hounded by the psychiatry and police.
It started at age eighteen, and all they could find was a deep resentment for my father.
Naturally, the psychiatry is a bluff. I say that for everyone's sake. Though it may not be a door you care to open; if so slam it shut rightfully!

Current situation, yeah psychiatry and police are nagging me. I have already written on here, and for me there is no alert for anyone, so I feel comfortable writing it, the police have said I am known by säpo. They could be bluffing. The police have said I am known by säpo.

I am one of the good guys.

I am not trying to make a name for myself with legal matters. I am trying to make a name for myself with authorship. Great artist or bust is still the motto, which I entailed when I was first on here.

Alright, so what is happening. And this was intended to be the most clean, and comprehensive piece I have written about I and the psychiatry.

I am not mentally ill. Foremost, one could speculate that psychiatry is a bluff excludes all mental illness. I have had the whole schabaaaang, and outgrew my illnesses; key was getting away from my family (no children, and not a personal ad intention) which were the roots of my demolished mind. I did start smoking cannabis at age 17, there were two reasons; one was that I was angry at my father. It, is, illegal in most parts of America and at the time was illegal. Except for lagging behind in the society game it also brought me to problems with, both, the psychiatry and police; not so strange.

Oh, so I am not in drug problems now, whether with myself or with society. I have been clean from drugs for about 20 years.

The previous previous place I lived; I wrote about this on poeterna, I was suicidal for over 1.000 days in a row. That is a long time to feel suicidal. The magic word feel. Anyone who has read me realizes I fell for someone, to me, special, and yeah things are better now, but for a while I could only, feel, about this person. Nevertheless the 1.000 days of suicidal in a row and loss of Josefine, are nothing to two nervous breakdowns. If you have read me, you can not have missed the two nervous breakdowns as well.

I don't want to seem high-brow, but yeah I have had a hell of ride. And speaking of which, my belief in God has -strenghtened- through all hardships. I, do, believe in nervous breakdowns, have happened ''through all ages''. ...Nowadays the psychiatry calls them ''psykos utbrott''. Right (?). Right (?). I am smart enough to know that is a way to, among other things, develop more as a human being.

I may have joked about it, but, always, disproved I am ''paranoid schizophrenic''. I am highly suspicious but for right reasons, about right things, etc. Important here there is two lessons to learn, a lot of mental ''illness'' stem from people thinking people give a shit. A naive view, like I had, of the world leads to mental illness; at least can. Second is that there is ultimate difference betwenn presuming (ana) something and assuming (anta) something. Let me just jump back up to make a correction in what I wrote - I am not paranoid; at times supicious; very, different. That was a bit of a trifle, and another trifle is to add that a ''psychosis'' that lasts 3 weeks gets categorized as ''schizophrenia''. No joke. How ('')scientific('') is that(?)(.) To tie it back up, I wanted to say two things about presume/assume, well one is that one could argue that everyone is running around with, delusions, assuming things. I forget the second thing. But, as long as you don't assume that people give a shit, you shouldn't happen in the delusional category. Yeah, it is that silly, really, for me, it is that silly.

So how am I doing this minute, losing energy for this and it is pretty comprehensive. Psychiatry is above the police. The police don't touch the psychiatry except take people there. The government dope benzodiazipines and methylphenidate do for the inebritation, antidepressants do for something, and antipsychotics put a lid on your head. I am on antipsychotics now, and you gotta give me kudos I am writing pretty well? I am not sick. I would write better off it. So worthy to mention I am on government ÖPT which öppen-vårds-lag-om-psykiatrisk-tvångs-vård, sounds pretty scary, it is! I have Never been on LRV, LVM, or a correctional (rätt psykiatrisk avdelning) unit. Negation to all that. ÖPT is what I have thrown on me. And under this law thing, I am forced to take ''psychiatric medicines'' or as we call them in America, nothing but, ''psychiatric drugs'', although I am healthy/frisk. I plan to take the big test to prove I am not sick. There is such a thing, a big test. ...If you missed it above I outgrew my mental illnesses by getting away from my family.

Some sort of summary. Doing ok. Doing better than 10 years ago. Doing better than 5 years ago.

Thank you and good day. Perhaps you learned something.