well, yeah, i've been thinking about this a few months, maybe a few years.

how not to fuck up again. let down your guard. be vulnerable. but yeah just not fuck up the whole thing again.

wiser. some argue we don't get wiser. one can become wiser. can one become wiser in love's game - or is it baaam!  you're f'd again. i'm trying to get right, again.

there are two music quotes that come to mind.

i do do mantras. so just a few weeks ago i was wondering, and writing it too,

neil young & co
why do i keep fucking up             i repeated that about two hundred times. get wiser that type of thing.

poi dog pondering
complicated it's alright  gonna get it right next time

so i stick to the first one. why not try it now? ok fine, i like challenges, personal, when i write. here goes

why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. give the girl, woman - time.  more so to explain .  well already developed it - hammer it in isak head.  won't throw in any more, just think them - insights - if any appear in this  MeDiCaTeD mind .  why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up. why do i keep fucking up.          well maybe things will just solve themselves on their own.      positive mood this morning isak?  yeah a bit