I thought I knew what life wanted of me
Well, I was wrong
I hate that I can't do things the way I should
And somehow I don't
I'm very confused but also happier than I was before
I hope things last because I don't want it all to fall again
I have had enough of that already
Once again I am taking risks, though I promised myself not to
I know that I am getting hurt but I don't care
I don't know what else too do so I will hang on even if I know what will finally happen
But I don't know
I can't se my future, I really thought I could
And now this thing is driving me mad and I can't do anything because that will truly make things more difficult
I don't know what I want
Or I do, but I don't know if things will continue as I want
I can't even tell anyone right now, I am too loyal
I feel lonely
But I am so happy, I really am
I just don't know what to hope for because I don't know how too see the future
I hope it will come soon and make me see
I just want to know if the one I love, loves me back
Maybe I am just a fool, believing the wrong things
Maybe I have just missunderstood everything
Or maybe not
Let's see what the future brings to us
Please come soon