Waking up isn't the hardest part, falling asleep again is.
As much as I hate to admit it
I think you're back to being a dream
And I think that's the hardest thing of all
I spent night after night
Thinking I'd never have you
Fearing that I'd never be done
Completed
Years and years
It feels like decades
Then you were there
All sparks and magic and impossible reality
With your hand in mine
Your breath in my face
And your smile in my eyes
And it was for me
Not just directed at me
But because of me
It made my knees shake
And set my heart racing like a greyhound
And life was good.
Life still is
But your smile is yet again
Directed at me
It's not for me
Not because of me
It makes my throat ache
And it makes my heart pound slow and deep and hard
Even if it is just for a second or two
Not so much because you're no longer mine
But because I'm back to dreaming of love
Instead of tasting it on my lips
And smelling it's lavender scent on my pillows
It feels like I was dreaming
Woke up
And now I'm back to sleep
But now the dreams are a paler shade
And my sheets smell like green apple fabric softener.