My life is sort of a stand-still

I am on this new medication

    and my production written

    is about zero

So are the chances ''she comes back''

              to write in prose

slim-to-none

       I am doubting myself, I am self-conscious

  and it is the new med. that has put a damper on my idea party

nothing really new here flat, and unenthused, made to colli

             just the way they want you

               or at least me

      this would be day 6 since the last, final letter was sent

     and, Yeah, I will wait forever

       I know my value on the market is decreasing

     And I know she saw my true colors

          A 50-year old with two kids?

             who knows cathrin was beautiful

            i am still unable to work out who josefine really was and did and do I still love her for that

       hmmm a few things I need to hear