I got splashed with the diagnosis (psychiatry is naturally a bluff) paranoid schizophrenic quite a few years back.

How is my overall-functioning-ability; quite good, and attest (perhaps it is not the same for all ‘’paranoid schizophrenics’’) I see the world much more clearly than others do. ‘’Nutters see the world more clearly than non-nutters’’.

Well, socially, as far as occupation, etc.; an answer to the above question. What ‘’we’’ and I stress we, right, because it’s we are gonna look at here is the socially part because that is what the title suggests. Occupation, in regards to that, I have my dream job which I like think I am good, and I have gotten quite a bit of praise, so I like to think I am good at it. I do constant observations, and get to work with my mind, that being thoughts and feelings while working; many of the Great writers, wrote, in, self-therapy. Let’s skip the ‘’etc.’’ part and jump to the socially part and this will be done.

Socially, yeah folks, I’m a bit ashamed to say, and it couldn’t be further from the truth cause my main music quote is pretty much Neil Young’s ‘’love and only love’’, including brotherly; well I got splashed with the, label, antisocial also. I, choose, who I socialize with. I find a large percentage of the population totally uninteresting (as an artist you may be the same?), a smaller than that large percentage of the population, uninteresting, and so on. I have, in fact, met a handful only, interesting < as I am getting tired writing, may be less poignant the rest of the writing > persons. Do I find myself interesting? Yes, and often keep myself company, but as a bridge in writing, if it is evolutionary programmed, human nature, whatever it is, (it is said hermits have hallucinations) we tend to look socially to someone. You can’t make it on your own; completely as such. You start talking to trees, and dogs, that type of thing; and you’re probably flying in mania or something. In Sweden we also got the notion of Stockholm’s syndrome. Call it comical, but I deal with this real-life thing all the time. Sporting two nervous breakdowns, well let’s get to the point here …not being able to trust is most times a product of being let-down, betrayed and similar terms, and can be of other factors as well; such as personal sensitivity. Oh, the paranoid (as I just looked at the title) doesn’t trust, and all kinds of speculative, deep thoughts come. One important thing is to have a category of ‘’maybe’’ and never, never, never assume things. Presume is ok, assume not. To skip to my other country of roots, in America, a standard expression in fact, we say, regarding ‘’assume’’, ‘’don’t assume you make an ass out of u and me’’. Got it, good. Well, where are we as my mind starts wandering to roofing days in America? Yes it did.

Here folks, if we want, and can, re-program, let’s call it mind or brain to trusting, or selective trust. < this brain is way tired for writing this now, or perhaps that is, a personal, excuse for me ‘’chickening out’’ for, potentially, successful, self-therapy when this essay is hitting a personal note. > Well yeah, please give me a break, I just thought about this outside my residence about 30 minutes ago. Something I’ve known for a long time, the earth’s current times, are Not a time to trust, and (fellow artists) most people, are not, to be trusted. Hmm, I stop there as I notice ‘’poeter.se’’ just receive active status again this morning. May the healing begin as I think they say in America.