I remember pain.
A pain so powerful that it felt like thousands of lightning bolts hitting me all of the same time.
A pain so powerful that it drove my heart to the bitter end.
A pain so powerful that it ripped my heart out into millions of pieces.

I remember feeling empty.
An emptiness so strong that it made everything around me disappear.
An emptiness so strong that it made every feeling except for pain and sadness go away.
An emptiness so strong that it made me feel unliving, made me feel like nothing mattered anymore.
An emptiness strong enough to make me believe I had lost you forever.
And maybe I had.

You told me there was a girl.
No one special you said.
You mentioned being with her, relationship way.
You said that you loved me more and if I was to be there with you, you would have chosen me without a doubt.
But then why were you to be with her?

You got me thinking.
That you should not have done.

That girl of yours took you away and left me here with nothing more than old memories of what we had.
All those nights when we talked past midnight.
All those nights when it was me and you.
All those nights when you got me laughing at all those crazy things you did.
All those nights when we said goodnight but stayed up further more just to arguing about who loved the other one more.

I know now that it was I who loved you more since I would never had left you no matter the distance.
Not that it matters anymore.

That girl of yours took away the sparkle of my life, and so there was nothing more worth fighting for.
You had her.
She had you.
I had no one.
I was all alone.
In the dark.

I was forever destined to walk in the dark.
Forever alone.
Forever in pain.
Forever thinking of you.
And only you.

Not being able to forget about you.
Not being able to move on.
Not being able to stop loving you.
Not being able to say goodbye.