you turn in your sleep
afraid you’re not real
that your bubble is going to burst
the people you love
are not normal enough
& you scramble around in the dirt

you’ve never been written about in a way
that makes you look larger than life
but you’re here & you have only just arrived
& we have a lot in common, you & i

we meet up in dreams
it’s my favourite scene
it explains all that came before
& what it all means
there’s a flash on the screen
& the audience heads for the door

the editor made me a footnote again
i’m hurt but i don’t think it shows
this is not how i wanted this to go
i worked hard on this, i just wanted you to know

this guy that i knew
no older than you
he’s gone & he’s gone for good
but i saw him last night
forgotten & blind
& i told him what i never could

i said
“just because you’re crazy
doesn’t mean that you’re not boring
just because i’m sorry
doesn’t mean i’ll apologise
just because i’m on your side
doesn’t mean that i’ll stay quiet
just because you’re in my life
doesn’t mean that you’re alive
but hey
i can still find you online
& you’re no better than me
just because you died
but we had a lot in common
you & i”