Sometimes I stop in my pity existence of life and ask myself, what is wrong with me?

Am I not good enough, is it just my lack of personalities, charm and complete shyness that ruins it all? Or simply my lack of selfconfidence Because everytime, the few times I've met persons in my life that I'm interested in, they seem to be mutual, but maybe that's just their kindness? They think I'm nice but that's it, because otherwise, it's just superficial crap, guy comes to a girl, guy thinks girl's hot or "sleepable", goes to hump her then leaves her be to never come back. And that maybe just maybe, the most guys just act nice to get the girl in bed.

Because all the times I've been interested in a guy they never seem to be interested in me the same way or at all for that matter. But when it is the other way around, when the guy is interested in me, then it's me who'se not interested in him.

Because maybe deep deep inside I like to fantasize and not get the real deal and when guys come along that seem to like me I don't want to go for it because it's just to boring it's reality and not fantasy. I live for the fantasy and want everything to be unicorns and rainbows, but it's just not, it will never be. Because one day you will wake up and notice that the love of your life, which you always thought were odd and indecent will have grown up, moved on and gotten himself a real girlfriend that likes him for who he is. A girl that he would do anything for, even if they would have to be apart from each other now and then, simply a girl that makes him want to be the best man he could possibly be. Because she is that special to him.

So remember this folks, live in reality, never look back, because that will only cause pain.