and all i see

is what was pretty much the last memory

most adorable smile

you wanted in for a while

i was looking at life time

you were not the hurting kind

and in my mind

i did not know

it was later i realized

i let you go

and scenes like this have been replayed a million times and more

we adored, i am stuck in the same old anguish,

no wiser,

no fundamental truth,

except your being was truth itself

and i put the book on the shelf

only to open it again

an extremely tiny bit of hope that you will greetings send

a drop of water turns to ocean

whether you once in a life time,

pure devotion