I need to listen to myself
I need to ignore the stress, the anxiety, the worry, the tiredness
And just listen
To my heart
I don’t speak its language anymore
I forgot..
It has been telling me something
For some time now
I wish I knew what..

In the days, sometimes in one of the few calm moments I get
I hear the constant mumble of something, wanting to be heard
It is my heart..
Silently screaming

I need to let my worries fly
I need to act as a human
Instead of a robot
A tired, worn out robot
That no longer is of any use to anyone
Not even to itself

This woman is a ruin
I could outclass the oldest of ruins in Greece,
In Egypt or Rome
The remains of the Vikings, even the ancient pyramids,
Has nothing on me

I feel as old as the sea itself
And just as polluted
And at the same time just as wild and untameable
And just as the sea,
I carry the weight of many ships on my shoulders