Eyes shut
Eyes open
Eyes crying
Eyes smiling

My misery’s
Shining through.
Everything I say
Is filled with it

Every word I speak
Every thought I think
Every feeling I feel
Is poisoned

Eyes dreaming
Eyes sad
Eyes remembering
Eyes far away

While I wait
I sometimes
Realize that
Life could be easier

My heart
My veins
My mind
Is full of
The only thing,
The drug,
That seems
To matter

My words for it are
Misery, poison, selfdestruction, killable, rape ...hate
[among others]

Eyes of killable
Eyes of hate
Eyes of poison
Eyes of misery