I can feel the darkness coming for me. I can feel it’s cold grip. I can! When did this become a part of me? When was the last time I did not feel it? When?

useless

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Over and over again. Will it ever stop spinning around in my head? Or is it stuck like the loop around my neck?
The loop that never tires of cutting off my air. I feel it all, all the damned, all the helpless, all the nothingness.
And yet I have to be the one that smiles, the one with the laugh, the one with the advice, because what would I be without them?
Do I realize that it can not be like that forever? Yes, will it go on forever? Yes!

The ones that need me will always win over the cold grip. They need smiles, laughter and advice. For them I will be all of it!

For them I will be!