The pain and the suffering
They are my saviors
I have absolutely no idea
How I would survive without them
The shame I feel
It’s so deep and painful
My soul is dead
My heart is rotten
I whish so that you knew
How much I regret my actions
Is it even possible
I wonder
That shame can be this strong
I don’t deserve to live
I know how I hurt you
But now it turns out
That I, without knowing I did so
Also hurt myself
The pain tormenting my heart
Is what keeps me going
For how could I ever give up
Knowing that your pain is so much worse
And how could I let something kill me
Something you don’t even show
I deserve to be tortured forever
Because I made your pain worse
So you can’t let me dye
But you can never let me laugh again