I handed it over to him

"Here, hold this."

He struggled to get a grip of it

Slippery, and bloody


When I pushed the open paper bag

to his shirt-clad chest


As he was leaning

for an expected embrace


A long while that was all that was heard

my silent breaths

withheld fear

hidden under squared shoulders

and the stretch of a proud neck


and his surprised ones


as he fought to not let go of the

vile thing I'd dropped


in his perfectly suited up arms



He stilled and straightened his back


with that old-fashioned gentleman way

that bothered me both into a shivering warm pant

and a playful scoff


depending on which hour we met.



"It's moving."

"I though it was dead."

I turned to leave but hesitated

looking over my shoulder


blood splattered over my caramel coat

"You're the only one I trust."

I neatly corrected the buttons and flattened it out

"I'm afraid... I'll kill it if you don't take it."


He looked up at me as it dawned on him.

It was all I needed.


The slight hint of empathy

in the frown of his brows


I walked way, car keys ready

chirping in a hollow tone in my hand



In a distance I could already hear it

in the hands of my secret lover

beating stronger


my heart.