I put on the makeup

I put on the makeup so you can't see
the black screaming darkness living in me
when tears are pooring and my soul rains away
on my hands and knees ready to pray
I put on the makeup so you can't judge
so you can't lie and you can't grudge
when i look in the mirror and noone looks back
everthing is empty and pitch dark black
I put on the makeup so i can be loved
without beeing fooled without beeing shoved
but beware of the distance cause i have the plague
im pissing on fire and my intentions are vague
I put on the makeup and present me i do
i am insane who the devil are you
a few people touched me while i wrote on the wall
in another time and place and i loved them all
I put on the makeup when the shadows gets longer
when the darkness embrase me and the pain getting stronger
when i look into the abyss and the abyss looks back
without a single tear and without a single crack
I put on the makeup and fear what i've become
one of the greatest but in the mirror a bum
whispering in the distance with to much wine and little sleep
in the wrong time and place killing me to keep
I put on the makeup to meet your makeup as mine
but behind all the curtains you make it to shine
i don't see as you see and i feel as you don't
die without living is something i won't
I put on the makeup when i know that you hate
load the gun with silverbullets and don't make me wait
pull the trigger gently so you can see when i leave
so you can watch me go to hell and back when crazy man deceive

U.D Arisag