What is this feeling?

This feeling that I feel..

It is more than one feeling..

There is a lot overlapping..

I am trying to tangle this all out..

But how?

I am just so confused.

I feel tired..totally drained..by new people and all this social interaction..to get rejected without a chance to understand..or to talk things through..

At the same time..I get reminded of past relationships and interactions..and I am really trying to figure out..this feeling I am feeling..

Where you do not trust anyone anymore..
Being burned so many times..
Makes me close my heart.

But I want to be able to move on and get out of this freeze mode..

Yet..

I just end up here.

In this feeling..

Maybe dissapointment?
Does not cut it..

Maybe confusion and stress..
Maybe. Still not it.

Maybe hope that gets shattered..?
Maybe..maybe..I have no clue..

But I am so tired..
So very very..in this..that I can not explain..

What is this feeling..?

That I am feeling..