Seasons blessings
Warm feelings abound
I see you standing by your living room window
Gazing at the festive lights in the sky

Exploding colors sparkling up high
The next day it all changed
- The countdown to when you would die

Cheers to the new year
Who knew it’d be the last?
Red turtle neck and silver bob
I had spent the night with friends
When I found her in the stair well
"My god!"

In the middle of the night
Darkness outside shone bright
Her apartment lit up as if bathed in daylight

Something was wrong
Hiding was no use
The hiding I would do after
Would entail years of abuse

I hid from her
On the ladder of decline
Memories mixed with wounds
Mixed with brilliant shine

The fuse had burned out
Nearing the end
Fireworks on winter sky
Eternally celebrating
Regrets yet to amend