So, I wrote him this e- mail. It was a long one, where I declared my loving feelings, my inner wishes and hopes for our future together. And even a long time afterwards, I don't have the slightest clue why the man that I have been living with in the same home never acctually wrote me back . I thought an e- mail would be a good way of showing that my intentions was sincere, as well as my emotions. Now, I am left here still in our partnerskap in the feeling of living a clown version of my own original.

Whether his silent treatment all was depending on his own decisions or partly others, I am still sure all of these years wasted on nonsens could have been something so much more contributing for our souls and our daily lives today. Why were for example all of his friends avoiding him, instead of giving him courage and space to grow as a person? That might have been a whole different area for us two as well. Somehow, I see no point in that kind of treatment. It makes me wonder; are they for real? To encoruage someone you care about, does of course not mean encouraging him to hunt other women.

(That was never a part of our deal. )

So, why are you all out there just sitting there, letting it go on still after all these years? I mean, perhaps he wonders the same...