"You snake you crawl between my legs said want it all it’s yours you bet I’ll make you queen of everything no need for god no need for him just take my hand I’ll be your bride just take that fruit put it inside you snake you dog you fake you liar i’ve burned my hands i’m in the fire aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ooooooooooohhh You salty dog, you filthy liar, my heart it aches I’m in the fire you snake I ate a true belief put rotted fruit inside of me oh Adam please you must believe that snake put it infront of me. Infront of me."

Maybe I’m deeply wounded
Maybe that’s why screaming feels so fucking good
It’s like meditation
It’s my path to liberation
Take the pain and use it
For empathy or pity party
And at the same time as I’m trying to get through being raped
I’ve gone and fallen in love with another boy who’s basically straight
And with alcoholic traits that I hate
Yet, I try to saaave him and cling on to my obsessive feelings for him
Cuz both of us are passionate and rare
But he doesn’t care
About me nor the world
Our strengths are found in our words
Verbal talents – different ways
Who’s to say we are two loud mouth cartoon figures
Tweedle-dumb and tweedle-dumber
Except who’s to tell who’s dumber
Me, the riot grrrl
Not the daddies girl
Angry witch burnt at the stake
Everytime I try too hard not to be fake
Again that skinny little bitch
And you the drunk one passed out in a ditch
But beautiful with your heart on your sleeve
Lieing like a child, fetus style head on knees
Somebody should tell us: bitches please
Stop fighting
Stop crying
Start trying

I feel for you
Told you what I know
You don’t believe me though
But you have gold and silver on your seat
All you have to do is get up, stand up on your own two feet
I say go
You say no
I say be more sober
You say not so

I am not a white swan
I have not won
But life is not a game
Where winning is about fame
Life is not some boring chore
It’s sacred and has never been lived before
My life is not dependent upon if I score
And atleast I am never a bore
Make me cry, baby make me laugh, honey make me scream
Treat me with respect, but not as though I’m queen
Wrestle me to the floor
Alive together like never before
I want to stay here and play with you

8 months ago I was raped and reshaped
I was torn through scorne
Saw my abyss upon to the core
I’m trying to get off the floor
I’ll kick down the door if they don’t let me in
Don’t want no drugs or alcohol
Can’t drown my sorrow in gin
Pain learns to swim
Right after it learns to walk and talk
But my hearts door is unlocked
Break off a piece of it and it will soon grow back
Just like a starfish, Ten times stronger each time it is attacked.

Cutting off my hair may have seemed self-destructive
But I deemed it the most constructive least destructive way of taking back control over my own body
It’s just hair
And I am anti-lookist enough to dare to chop it off
Feel free to listen feel free to stare
"Slutkiss girl won’t you promise her smack is she pretty on the inside, is she pretty from the back slutkiss girl won’t you water her rack is she rotten on the inside, baby ugly ugly from the baaaaaack There is no power like the pretty power, the pretty power, like you’re ugly. Slutkiss girl won’t you water her rack is she ugly on the inside baby ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly wooooooooh."

I’m healing this hole and taking back what you stole
I write because I know it is right
To stay and fight
My pen is my weapon, is my blood is my knife
As I turn my life from private pity party
Into enlarged empathy
I always do good
Just as I should
As long as I have a voice
Dying is not a choice
I will be sent straight to hell
If I write
Dying is an art
Like everything else I do it exceptionally well
My life is no Sylvia Plath story
I won’t just die
Won't just leave
Won’t just go shoving my head into a fucking oven
I’ve got to be strong
Reach out for life
For empathy, not pity party

"So, Don’t let them bring you down, don’t let them fuck you around this is your arm that is your heart and no no they can’t tear you apart they can’t take it away, cuz this is your time this is your life and this is your time this is your life and this is your time this is your life and you better keep on, keep on living, you better keep on, keep on living, you better keep fuckin' on, keep on living"

I feel my heart as it beats through my body
I’m living a real life story
Sometimes bloody and sometimes gory
I’m not sorry
Don’t you worry
I’ll wipe off my tears in a hury
Jump up in a scurry
And be biting of the dick of patriarchy and the head of capitalism with my fury

"Cuz I am a fighter, I ain’t gon’ stop, there is no turning back, anymore, makes me that much stronger makes me work a little bit harder, makes me that much wiser, thanks for making me a fighter, made me learn a little faster, made my skin a little bit thicker, makes me that much smarter, thanks for making me a fighter!"