Inexplicable, what´s going on inside of me?

I don´t know it myself, there is no answer, no clue

I´m alone with all of this, all of this

Flowing uncontrollably

I want to hide, run as far away as I can

But I´m stuck here, with only me, myself

And all of my emotions

I have been trying hard not to feel

Because feeling can lead to pain, heartache and tears

My experiences has made me build up a wall

And I am scared of breaking it

But now it seems, that something has broken through

I´m feeling something I havn´t felt for such a long time

But I don´t know what it is

And I´m too scared to find out ...