The feeling is still there, feeling as I thought
was gone for good!
But it is drilled into my head,
trying to fight it every day,
but it is difficult ...

Looking at the rusty metal piece,
throw it with all I have into the wall
where it gets stuck and be!

My head pounds and spins around,
do not know what I'm going to take me to!
Sit and look out, straight out of the darkness.

After a while, so I decide
to take and go out into the darkness in the cold
winter cold. Leave your jacket in my room
To be able to get what I feel within me!
The pain that has hurt me the procedures long time

Hear how it crunches under my shoes out of the snow,
see how the icy water sink down into tiny snowflakes
and lands on the ground.

I know how it sticks in my arms,
but still feel warm.
Look down at my hands and see how they
begins to turn blue and my arms as well.

Ignore it completely still feel warm.
I continue to go straight ahead without looking back;
for I have told so many people continue to look ahead
and not look back at the past!
This time I'll try to do it with;
but the way to my goal is far, far away
but I'll make it!

I feel that I start to fall,
lands into the snow.
Get up and brush off my snow;
begins to move home, but my thoughts
has not eased anything but simply become more.

Go into my room, stands looking at the
rusty metal piece attached to the wall.
Thinking to myself, 'Should I take it or not?
What would my friends say if I betrayed them
again?

I do not know what they would say!
Do not know what to do, want not
know what would happen then! "

Turn my fist all I can into the wall
next to the metal piece so it falls down from the wall.
Goes to bed and lie down
and try to close your eyes and just forget everything ...