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Being black is who I am, not who I’m trying to be

You can insult me by saying I am a wannabe "intellectual", darling, that will be ineffectual. You can classify me as "not like the stereotypical black girls, but the fact is I always opposed diamonds, my best friends are pearls. You can call me an oreo, coconut a white girl wannabe, honey, just like Carlton Banks being black is who I am not who I’m trying to be

You can ridicule me because I like classics, call me a wannabe "Bourgeois," but the truth is I like my movies, and my style is quite "French noir" You can tease me, call me the biggest phony, a Lola May... I adore breakfast at Tiffany's from that I won't stray

You can make fun of me, dear just, go ahead because I don't fit the stereotype of a black woman in your head. Ask yourself why you are so troubled that I am so comfortable in my own skin, you call me an oreo but I think you are the one who ought to look within.

I refuse to be a noble victim, that's not how I like to behave. I proudly call myself a descendant of humans, you still call yourself a slave. You can insult me by saying I am a wannabe "intellectual", darling, that will be ineffectual. You can call me whatever you like, my mission on this earth is not to be your "type"

I can be all of the things you say or far from that, a down-to-earth kinda gal or the feminine brat.

Here you go, you were asking for this self-portrait update, surprise, surprise I am still the type of woman you love to hate. You can insult me for enjoying my classics and exploring new wine, I think you are just bothered that I no longer cast pearls before swine.




Övriga genrer av Sandra De Freitas VIP
Läst 217 gånger och applåderad av 7 personer
Publicerad 2022-02-26 11:40



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    ej medlem längre
Suverän text om vikten av att vara "sig själv," för hur annars kan man vara sann mot sig själv, eller andra?
2023-03-31

    ej medlem längre
i was called "one of those bullshit pseudo-intellectuals" ages ago. now, on slashdot, i get modded to oblivion. so i guess they dont like my point of view. most people call me wise these days, after ive just uttered a few words. no, i dont want to be seen as wise - i want my equal - are you that one? to talk to. <3

being black? hmm. yes.. my dad was called the n-word (the worst kind of the n-word) by family, friends, strangers - all of them (he was from knivsöder - one of the worst ghettos in the world, and still spoke the tongue, when he was in his 60's).

because he had a flat noze, big lips, and another, *ahem* big part.. which i inherited (i have small lips and a straight noze though). that was it. that was all that was needed, in the older, much more racist times.

i got most of my inspiration from the smell of mummies. god damn did i like it dirty before! the other day, i got that scent in my being, i had a wooden chair out in the rain, to keep open the door. it got some "treatment", then i put it in the in the bathroom. a few days ago, when i showered, i got the smell for a few seconds, its like a mix between mold and rot - and something more. then magic happened! pretty hard to explain. good things though.

the spirit of africa is in me.

otherwise im whiter than white. only my american friend tracey is more pale than me - that, and albinos. something interesting, is that i thought tatus paled to an ugly green shade. nuh uh. not on my skin. to me, my tatus radiate blue, ultraviolette almost. beautiful!

i call myself a descendant of venusians. my peoples are 3 billion years old - the draconians will never win over us, theyre just 1/10th our age.

but, yes, these days. i have one, and one only "diagnosis": human, all-too-human.

oh yes, and im a brat. and yes, im feminine. before i changed my middle name to emma, everyone was like "uh, so, are you a girl or a boy?". now they seem convinced, that.. im both? ^_^

as an ox, i like to take it easy. i dont get how people can waste so much of their day, and still enjoy it? i write and read all day long. i can still get in a bad mood. but mostly im giggly like a teenager. bitchy like 15 year old girl. wise like a 10000 year old man. give advice like a batixhäxa. and horny like a young pig. throw your pearls to me!
2022-02-27
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