Things fall apart around me,
drops from the sky
like doomsday meteors
or volcano ash.

Words are said but not being meant,
hidden away,
scurried away,
when I need them the most.

On the outside I look calmly normal,
like a standardized test
with multiple choice questions.

Inside
I'm a too long essay
with multiple endings,
with too many explanations.

But tonight
I want to be in your sun ray,
in your orbit,
sucking up your blindness to the dark.