I always tried to write about you
a poem, a song, a sentence
anything, to make you realize
how much I loved you

For though words seldom has
the power to express such things
my attempts to prove it by actions
were even paler

I'm convincing myself it's for the best
That you don't deserve me
but I've never before wanted to give
anyone so much of me

(Desire, excitement)

I was head over heels
convinced you were the one
but not wise enough
to see how time might tell


(I am not in the breathing world
I'm choking, I'm starving
I'm dying, I'm flying
I dream
This is a dream
I'm dreaming)



I cannot see
why of all the people
who could have left me
It had to be you



Acceptance.
Patience.

Is that His reason for my suffering?

Understanding.
Peace.

I would have been happy with you.

Love.
Far away from jealousy and selfishness.


I will do my very best
but perhaps I will never understand
why I cannot find it
with you by my side