I’ve met you in a time when I wasn’t supposed to meet anyone. In a time where I promised myself to be alone, because that’s what I want. In a time where I promised myself not to fall.

I’m doing everything in my power not to stumle. I’m watching every step so very closely, as not to trip.

I’m trying my best, but I’ve already gotten attatched and I don’t know how to fight it, how to stop.

In my mind I’ve been way too far. I’m my mind I’ve touched you, I’ve kissed you, I’ve even held you when you sleep.

I’m trying to shut down my thoughts, I’m trying to stay away. I tell myself not to talk to you, to not get sucked in. But I can’t seem to stay away. As soon as I tell myself No, I’m right back there, thinking of something to say.

Half of the time I feel something’s there and I panic. At the same time my heart jumps. But sometimes it feels like it’s all in my head, and that it’s all imagination, nothing’s there. And I tell myself I’m happy about it, because ”this is what I want”. But at the same time my heart sinks.

Only you can save me, but either way I’ll break.