torsdagen den 19:e februari anno 2015 klockan 04.23.

blink blink blink cursern försöker söva mig. Det går inte alls. Stor eller liten bokstav? Vem orkar rätta det på en svart IPad mitt i natten. Inte jag iallafall. Så ....klämt i mig lite medikamenter - ställt timern i mobilen på 40 minuter. Då bör lindringen och de vansinniga skriken ha tystnat något. Så att jag kan få leva ett par timmar till. För på min gravsten skall det just stå så: Här "vilar" något som levde när det sov. Och därav nu lever för evigt!

"Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bedj

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me aloneki
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

"Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well...

Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye..."

But Aah - not dead yet Dear friends. Though I am working Hard at IT. And  I know the toughest times & thoughts remains...but I Will embrace them - and so so so slowly freeze  them to death with the coldest of hearts.

Goodnight - hope you are at sleep right now and dreaming so so so Sweet Deams. Cause you are worth it. Heartfelt thanx to you all lovely POETS :o) .... Time now 05.19    -  So long...