The Sun is searching for you in the dark.
Nothing feels real in the Illusion.
There is a layer of dirt placed over our entire world that you clearly need to see before you can become yourself and do right by your life in a true freedom.
The one you were will be wished for and loved.
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Looking into your lair where you sit with false and empty comfort; A little written down and recorded false understanding and recognition from others with zero insight. Deafened with constant "pleasures" such as sugar, alcohol, movies, medications, art, music, fat, games, the internet, in flight from yourself, but you say you are searching to find yourself in the trash... You claim that you have some kind of freedom with your "birthright" and to ignore the fact that you live in our world where no one wants to have any deep communion, or even contact, with you is everyone's great loss. So you are an optimist, pessimist and realist with your good proud morality to offer there in all your forced egoism, in all the betrayals you have answered with your betrayal and in everyone's cowardice that has given rise to your cowardice. Your hypocrisy is nasty. You are not only harming yourself but all of us by crawling away like an in-sect. Blaming yourself is like grief, the longer you hold on the more likely you will suffer life and die.
Your life is not free for us. You are not here to "live" under constant oppression, be humiliated, turned into a joke and laughed at by our foes. Your denial of Reality and your passivity are now part of the enemy's guilt that our societies in our owned world are falling apart by.
Become a conscious loving warrior with all rights.
Pay off your debts and get freedom and Life.
Only after that can you be respected and loved.