Life\'s wasted on me
as little as I do
as little as I achieve
I alter nothing
I create nothing
I destroy nothing
I am an entity
taking up space
a hinderance
for those who try
those who want
those who will
and those who actually wonder
try until fail and cries
a blank slate
tabula rasa... whatever
I\'ll never manage more
for lack of trying
for lack of will
for lack of hope
I am branded by my desillusion
my resolution to never give up
and to never really try
I will live my life
in spite
in pure resistance
in helplessly unwanting...
in total, unadulterated fear
I gave up so long ago
I can\'t remember
I\'m walking softer these days
breathing calmer
my mind is clearer
but still in chaos
and my heart
it beats
a little slower
every day
as a scream inside an empty house
when I perish
nothing will change
except everything

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