I keep doing the same thing
over
and over
and over
again.

- Give me something to feel,
even if it's hate,
just something.

And I keep hating myself
by hating my choices
of always ending up in tears.

All I can think about
is my reasons why
and they never seem
to ever make sense.

So why even bother,
why even care?

I'm just as astonished
as you are.