loneliness sucks…

Yea… I'm fine with being alone… I'm used to it…

Still… it's there… always this the noise loneliness bring…

It's there each and every day you wake up alone… go to bed alone…

During the day you can almost forget how bad it feels…

But every night it starts again… as painful as it ever was...

It makes you want… almost crave… relief…

In any sense of the word… even if relief is equal to death

… it doesn't even feel like a too-high of a price to pay

when you're there… in the moment… alone… in the darkness...

Sure, you'll adjust… a human can adjust to almost anything…

… but loneliness stands out since even if you're used to it… it'll never feel right…

and even if you embrace it… lie yourself into wanting it…

loneliness will nibble at your sanity…

crush everything you feel is good and true…

'til there's nothing left…

and all you do is waiting… waiting for something that never will be…

and then… acceptance shreds the thin vail of hope…

and you're there… with one single though in your head…

… loneliness sucks

And yes… it really, really does…

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