Already I feel alone, misplaced and far away from inner consciousness, and I have only been home for two hours. Now it suddenly feels like I left a part of myself behind. Did I forget something? No, I did not. Did I forget myself, perhaps? No, I did not; I found myself, but in the same moment that realisation rose within me, leaving was upon me. I did not want to and I did not realise it until now. I have never experienced such a connection to my inner self; closeness, warmth, safety, consciousness, awareness, authenticness. I can only hope that in time, I will bring it with me home. Yesterday I suffered one of the hardest farewells I have ever witnessed, and that farewell was hardly a farewell at all. Yet, I will take it into heart. "Keep smiling..."