I saw a lifetime's worth in you

still, dreary images and contrasts of the same
wild, starry eyes... a void of disbelief

I wanted to know what you knew
to be inside your being and explore
to stare as in a dream, through those gigantic eyes

therefore my feet pulled me away
dragged my screaming inside along with my carcass

it hates me... my sense of self...
and I hate... that I love it... I need it's control...

thus my dreams are all dead
and it's all because of me


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