I try to find

A safety

A place

Where I can stop being afraid

I get so scared.

The fear is overwhelming

Trying to get away.

I can't trust my self

I can't trust anything

It is a spiral of madness

A sprial of saddness

I become so malificent

For a second.

Even when I mean well.

World, you are so scary.

You pray on the weak

Manipulation, control

The dark desires I see them everywhere

It makes me sick to be able to understand

But at least am not guilibel anymore

Trick and cheat, fraud and greed

Always the same shit over and over

Consumed by the desire.

"sigh" never really feels safe anymore.