I head straight to bed 'cause I’m sick and tired, I’ve gotten no reward for all I’ve sacrificed. I work harder than others and don’t get by, each day and night is a fight for survival. I wake up worried in the dead of the night without my one true love by my side. I cannot seem to cry, the silence is too loud and it hurts too much inside. I contemplate the idea of suicide, I shouldn’t be alive, can’t wait to finally die. Life's tried to break me, now I’ve lost the fight, now I'm ready to say good bye. It doesn't matter how hard I try, the curse has haunted me all my life.

Bad luck non-stop since I was a child, you won’t know what rock bottom’s like. There is no "we", it’s a fake solidarity, none of the adults helped me a bit. A dysfunctional family, a derelict and broken home to say the least. My dad was a drunk and my mom a junkie, I grew up in the system, the nightside of society. I’m the darkest horse and the blackest sheep of a perfectly normal foster family. My stepfather raped me three-hundred times at least, I do hope the LORD’s got a plan for me. Got scars inside and outside that I wear with pride, I explore my shadow in order to murder my I. The person I was yesterday has been left behind, like phoenix I’m born anew, when I fall I arise.